A Not-So-Perfect Day

A Not-So-Perfect Day

I don't know.

Yes, I don't know.

Well, should I start my writing with something much more interesting rather than IDK a.k.a I Don't Know?

But, really...

There are times that I really don't know.

Don't know what to do, don't know what to say, don't know what the future might bring.

I wish my days would be full of flowers that blossom beautifully.

I wish my days are just such perfect days that I've got nothing to complain about...

But, those are just my wishes.

Things that I know (finally, huh? There's something that I know haha :)), those are just my wishful thinking.

While in reality, they never really exactly happen that much.

Life sometimes is full of unexpected things.

Some are good ones, many times they just turn out to be bad not too mention nightmares.

But, after the suffering that we've gone through, somehow there's a power that looks after us.

A power that guides us...

Especially when we're so tired and weak...

And we thought we could never go on...

Yes, there's this magical hand that leads us to get through all of the problems...

It's not that the problem suddenly flies away...

But, somehow, in some ways, we got the strength to go on despite all the bad things that we thought we could never dare to face.

Those magical moments remind me of the Almighty.

The One and Only who can help me(read: us) to get through all the things in our lives.

Life isn't a fairy tale.

It's pretty far from Hollywood dream that ends: " And they live happily ever after..." in each of its ending...

But, yes...

Every cloud has a silver lining...

There'll be a rainbow after the rain...
If only we wait patiently for them to come, as long as we keep on fighting 'till the end.

A not-so-perfect-day like today...

Or like yesterday...

Or like two years ago...

Or like tomorrow...

Or like ten years from now...

Most probably those days will come to us anyway...

But in those not-so-perfect days...

There's always this special and perfect God who will always guide me.

He'll guide you...

He'll guide us...

In every step of the way...

In the midst of a long and winding road...

For He's always there to guide us and to see us through.

I'm thankful for my not-so-perfect days...

Because I know, I got a perfect God who knows exactly the picture perfect of my life in His Eyes.

12.05.2015

-fon-/ Fonny Jodikin

A Gleettering Love of God

Chris Colfer who acted as Kurt Hummel on the new TV serial Glee has made me see the relationship between Abba Father, our God, with His children.

In its episode tonight, when he confessed to his father that he’s a gay, then his father said:

“ I know it since you’re 3. But it doesn’t change my love for you. I still love you for what you are.”

And he cried.

Well, what can I say?

That’s the love of our Father (or even more than what I’ve seen in the movie!). Unconditional. 100% acceptance. For whatever we’ve done in our life, He forgives us. And His forgiveness is uncountable (well, it doesn’t mean that we can take it as a granted though). But, what I’m referring to right now is that: it doesn’t matter how bad your past was. It doesn’t matter how sinful you were before. It doesn’t matter that you’ve done the biggest mistakes in your life in previous time, because His mercy is there for you.

His mercy is there for us. He’s able to forgive us. Over and over again. Even sometimes for the same stupid mistakes that we couldn’t avoid to do. He is willing to accept us, just the way we are.

God’s love, God’s forgiveness is filling my heart at this moment.

Never look down on yourself, because He accepts you for what you are.

The only thing that matter is: too often we can’t accept ourselves. We think that we’re not worthy. We think that we’re not good enough. Oh, yes.. we need to fight for whatever we want in this life. For whatever we have at this moment: our job, our family, our study. But, we can only live our life to the fullest when we can accept ourselves more and more.

God loves you. God loves us. God so loved the world that He gave His only Son. That’s the greatest love of all.

HCMC, 11 February 2010

-fon-

* thankful of Glee’s episode tonight. Let’s enjoy the gleeterring love of God in our life

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Make It Happen

It’s not a coincidence that I watched this movie-Make It Happen- in Star Movies channel few days ago. And while watching it, some part of my heart was like shaking (it’s kind of like trembling inside thing), because I’ve always loved the movie or the program about fulfilling one’s dream. And make it happen. I didn’t watch it from the very beginning though, all I saw was just the end scenes. But, I was touched by it. The story is about the dancer who works hard for entering a dance college or dance school, but she didn’t make it. Then, she worked in a club instead and her brother came and asked her to continue the family business. That means she has to forget about her dream and let it go. She did it but then suddenly the brother gave the consent to do the audition. And she did it! She got the spot that’s available in the dance school! Yeay!

Besides this kind of movie, I also like watching ‘American Idol’, especially the part of giving hope. I mean that usually the program is featuring a few persons with incredible backgrounds. Maybe they were abandoned as a child, having the cancer or other strange disease but yet are able to get back on their feet. The power of the dream influenced them so strongly. I admire them. I admire those who made their dream come true and really go for it.

Talking about my dreams…

Hmmm, few years ago, in the interview if they asked me what do I want to be in 5 years time? Since I was working as a foreign institutional dealer in a securities company, all I could see was just becoming a sales or sales trader in another five years time. More than that, I don’t know. Really, I have no idea about it.

Then, after going through all the changes that God allowed me to go through, all I could ask was just becoming a good mother, a good wife, a good daughter, a good friend for my closest ones, a good disciple of God, etc. But one thing that’s on top of my list that I want to share with you all is that: I want to become a writer. I tried and am still trying to make it happen until now.

I started to do blogging since 2006 until today. And along the way, I had the chance to read Bo Sanchez’s inspirational writings. He always encourages us to be very specific about our dreams. To write them down and to read them everyday. And work on them , make them happen, and pray for each one of them everyday.

That makes me feel more focused. Even though I don’t have any book published yet on my solo writing, but I’ve made some progress though. And I’m thankful for that.

When you ask yourself and see in the depth of your heart, you’ll find that you’ve got some dreams that you really want so badly. Each time you think of it, each time you think of them, you know that your passion is there. You know that you’re willing to give your heart and soul 100% for it. You even know that you can cry for it (because you want it so much and that’s where your heart is). And of course, we must work hard to achieve it. Because if we keep on dreaming without doing anything about it, it’s not a wise thing to do. Work hard and pray hard. After doing our best, then let God do the rest.

So, what’s your dream? What’s your deepest dream that you’ve already buried so deeply inside your heart and try to let it go? Well, this is the time to dig it and make it happen! And last but not least, “ I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” (Philippians 4:13)

HCMC, 6 February 2010

-fon-

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http://moviestudio.files.wordpress.com/2008/11/make_it_happen.jpg